fighting
peace be upon to you.
today is the...... ( dont know how manys times ) because i've lost the count already. been doing ISK for adik2..
and this time more or less is the same. when me being so loser and so dissappointed with this kind because when we thought we are okay already where we actually not.
so shahier dtg harini. and farah will evening and shima also.
and also before meeting shima , jumpa shahier and she told me about herself and i feel belonged because she just the same with me. faham je lah of what she gone through. She need the support here.
yesterday , after , about to pujuk shima because she is about to go the program kolej. and decided to pujuk yg lain jugak lily and syikin jugak.
and ash also suddenly nak mintak excuse sebab she worried about her submission.
and i was sad.
and i was searching for lily and syikin but they not at their room. and that nght they decided not to go. beacuse also the same reason they not yet completing the task and assignment.
and im fighting with myself of being keep strong doing like nothing happened or just give up. the keep strong is much bigger je but maybe in such 51 over 49. hahaha.
its like... youre very fragile that how come that you are very weak. dont you believed in Allah's plan?
fighting for them adik2 tu yang
should i just stop doing with them or just continue like usually?
i was started to think yesterday , i want to run away from this.
becuase everyhting is not right. not them but its me. i feel like i dont fit with these.
but theres saying je in my heart that , Allah only want your effort , not the results ! not the results! and Allah surely hear you or wishes , just He will fulfill it with His WAY not yours !
nevertheless , rasa je lah yang when i want Allah help me , but i dont realyy close to Him right now? and just recall yang surah
still fighting inside me.
RASA NAK GIVE UP SANGAT !
I WANT TO LOSE THEM ALL. IF THAT THE WAY , I AM GETTING BACK MY FEELING TO ALLAH. :)
today is the...... ( dont know how manys times ) because i've lost the count already. been doing ISK for adik2..
and this time more or less is the same. when me being so loser and so dissappointed with this kind because when we thought we are okay already where we actually not.
so shahier dtg harini. and farah will evening and shima also.
and also before meeting shima , jumpa shahier and she told me about herself and i feel belonged because she just the same with me. faham je lah of what she gone through. She need the support here.
yesterday , after , about to pujuk shima because she is about to go the program kolej. and decided to pujuk yg lain jugak lily and syikin jugak.
and ash also suddenly nak mintak excuse sebab she worried about her submission.
and i was sad.
and i was searching for lily and syikin but they not at their room. and that nght they decided not to go. beacuse also the same reason they not yet completing the task and assignment.
and im fighting with myself of being keep strong doing like nothing happened or just give up. the keep strong is much bigger je but maybe in such 51 over 49. hahaha.
its like... youre very fragile that how come that you are very weak. dont you believed in Allah's plan?
fighting for them adik2 tu yang
should i just stop doing with them or just continue like usually?
i was started to think yesterday , i want to run away from this.
becuase everyhting is not right. not them but its me. i feel like i dont fit with these.
but theres saying je in my heart that , Allah only want your effort , not the results ! not the results! and Allah surely hear you or wishes , just He will fulfill it with His WAY not yours !
nevertheless , rasa je lah yang when i want Allah help me , but i dont realyy close to Him right now? and just recall yang surah
still fighting inside me.
RASA NAK GIVE UP SANGAT !
I WANT TO LOSE THEM ALL. IF THAT THE WAY , I AM GETTING BACK MY FEELING TO ALLAH. :)
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