"I am not like them"

" I am not like them"

And suddenly tears rolled down the cheeks as I was riding the motorcycle back home.

You know, sometimes it did happen to me that there some whispers saying that

" you're not good enough for this"
" she is more better than you"
" she has what you don't have" "
" she is like this , you are not like this"
" that's why everyone likes her because this character she has"

and so many more until all those creepy sayings eventually ate me.

deep down inside me, I always feel that I am never able to do this very big thing. this amanah is really something not for play around thingy.

somehow, I am saying to myself that, you're not the one who makes you capable of this, but Allah did.

And now currently I am jobless and i am  drowning by not having enough financial to support my daily expenses and and monthly commited cost , ie house rental , MARA loan , Takaful.

And i have so many  thinking in my minds ie how people treat why shes not treating me the same way.

and i have this one person that i really love to have conversation with her , but she's someone that very good at people. people know her. very outstanding person. so the way she treating me , always make me feels special. and she make everyone feels like that. so dont hope for more.

enough of this,
words for me , unable feelings is come from the syaitan , and why that feelings affecting me , simply because you dont intimate enough to Allah , azrina.

p/s : improve your realtionship with Allah ! because a strong heart never sees a weak body.

waallahualam.